saw you yesterday at price chopper. walked by without saying a word. got to the parking lot, started hyperventilating. sat down in my car, started sobbing. not a thing in the world could ever make me feel any differently about you than i did 5 years and 8 months ago. and when we stopped talking 1 year and 3 months ago, it broke my heart. exactly 1 year ago today you texted me to see how i was doing, i was in disney and when i got your text it brought me to my knees, literally. i didn’t respond, but now i am. i won’t text you, but i still remember your number by heart. so here is my response, a day late and a dollar short: i’m doing horribly. i miss you terribly. and i wish i knew how to make you need me. i wish i knew how to be what you need. besides a piece of ass. and you were wrong, the next guy? he isn’t better than you, he can’t even measure up. i don’t think he’s one tenth of the man you have the capability of being, the person you were sometimes. i wish we were good, because baby when we were good we were great. now i don’t exist in your world and the ghost of you lives on in mine, you haunt my heart. happy halloween my only love. maybe someday our paths will entwine again.
forever me xoxo